I'm at breaking point right now, I'm sick of all these people, who do you think you are to treat people this way and expect them to kiss your feet? I've learned a lot in this year of 2009 and its not even over, I've realized who my real friends are, the ones i can trust with my life and not have them stab me. i got so caught up in other peoples shit i forgot who i was, the real me, I'm not cocky or full of drama, that's not me and i cant blame anyone for 'making me this way' but in a way i can because they changed how i acted etc. I'm sick of this all, shit was so much easier when i didn't let my guard down, when i didn't let people close enough to hurt me and fuck me up. i put myself first and all i hear is 'stop being stuck up', 'you're so self centered' and 'get over yourself'. i have never once had a high self esteem and the one time i do something for myself I'm suddenly being stuck up and all that other shit, well I'm sorry but if i want to put myself first to sort myself out i will, i don't need fake friends telling me what to do or what to be.


1. i miss you, there, i said it but you already know i do, you know how i feel and all that other shit, i wish things were simpler only because life seemed so much more easier when you were there next to me, helping me through a lot, we have known each other for a long time and in all honesty. you've been on my mind a lot and i don't understand why, i put up with your hurtful words a lot because i don't want to lose you even more then i have.

2. I'm sick of the way you treat me, you expect me to put everything into you and i have to do all this stuff for you but when it comes to you, you don't even want to bother, you spread shit about me before even thinking about how it will effect me or even us for that matter so stop being such a jerk and make up your mind cause I'm not taking it anymore. don't tell me you care or even use the L word to me because this isn't any of those, if you did care you'd know how to treat a person, I've put a lot of energy into you and this is how i get treated? well thanks its nice to know how you truly are.